Leaving

On Monday I had a dentist appointment - my first time away from Amalea. Everything in my wanted to call and cancel the appointment, but I knew I needed to keep it. So, I did and for one hour I was away from my baby.
I felt anxious the entire time. I was wondering how she was doing - was she crying, was she sleeping, was she happy - it was hard.

I guess that is one of the things that changes in my life now that I am a parent - worry begins to creep in and anxiety is increased. I am learning the new curves of life with a child and the new emotions that it all brings. It's hard, but I love it so much. She is absolutely worth all the anxiety, all the pain, all the worry - she is beautiful, strong, healthy (besides the eye thing), loud, animated, cuddly, warm, and so lovable.