There are three things I have really been missing in my life.
First, I miss scrapbooking and sewing. I was never great and either one of those things, but it was something I enjoyed doing. I didn't start sewing until I was pregnant (after giving it up in high school), but I really liked it. Both sewing and scrapbooking were times when I would focus on the project before me and put everything else aside. For Amalea's birthday she got an incredible home made gift that really made me miss sewing. I often have project ideas in my head, but they rarely ever get made.
The other thing I really miss is reading. Reading is one of my biggest hobbies and I haven't read anything since August. That is a really long time for me. The pile of books I intend to read is growing as is my list of books to get at the library, but I am currently reading nothing.
I feel like I need to make time for these things again. I find myself often overwhelmed with all that is going on in life. I know I need to have more balance and I am sure if I did I would be a better parent and a better wife. I hate that I get frustrated with those around me when they have done nothing to deserve it. I am stressed and therefore incredibly crabby to people who don't deserve to have to deal with me.
I miss taking out a project and working until that feeling of being overwhelmed disappeared. Sure, it often came back after I finished, but that hour was blissful. I miss getting totally lost in a book and staying up way too late because I can't make myself put the book down.
I guess I've complained enough. I suppose my problem is my own fault. I mean I could have been reading or crafting instead of writing this blog to complain about the absence of those things.
Thoughts along my journey
2 comments:
Robin, welcome to motherhood! You will feel these things for years to come, the frustration of never having a minute to do what you want to for yourself...but it is ALL worth it and you always survive. (Also, don't worry about whining once in awhile, you just need to). Just relish the small moments you can carve out for yourself, and make sure that you do, because they are critical to your sanity. Pick up a book TODAY and just read a little, you'll feel better. Also, don't forget date night...remember what I taught you girl!
Robin, make time! You need some YOU time. I know it's easy to say it, but it really is good for your health to have YOU time. I know you know this, but I wanted to encourage you to really see it through. Even if it's just 10 or 20 minutes for some hobby. And by the way, if you pick up the Twilight series, you most likely WILL get lost in it. I'm 2/3 done with Book 4 & aching to read the rest of it. It sucks not to be able to read while at work. =) If'd started the book on Friday or Saturday, I for sure would've been done by last night. I read for about 6 hours straight yesterday & the time FLEW by. I really did have to force myself to shut the book, calm my mind, pry it away from the story, and go to sleep. It took awhile. I'm quite pathetically attached to this story...Bella is slowly gaining points with me. =)
But...time management is a conscious effort, every day, I think. I haven't been so good at it lately. I still haven't gotten a chance to call you back! I'm so sorry! I'm so bad with the phone calls. Another thing I need to improve upon now that most of my friends live so far away!
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